I should not really use Tim as an idea punching bag. I now really wonder what goes on in his head while he looks at me frowning. Is it that I look pretty or am I actually making sense.

I was talking about the emptiness one feels when you question and break through what has been built around you. How what seemed like a normal thing to do should actually not be done at all, and how that shakes your foundation leaving you to build another, actively or not.
I was talking about how I don't like it when people decide to get new hobbies not because of a feeling or out of a necessity. The people who embark on new adventures with less spiritual welcoming than a Red District vagina.

I was also talking about the savageness of Spanish civilisation, on how it takes balls to act something out, but then takes eloquence and intellect to make it prosper.
Globally, divide people in civilised and uncivilised, which mostly responds to the people who have toilets and wifi,  and the people who don't. Then, divide this again in civilised civilised, and savage civilised, which manifests in the level of craft and efficiency of both systems and competences.
The savage civilised can also be divided, in an active imitation of the civilised, or a passive more soft embrace of another society.
In Spain, the leaders think they are actively becoming part of the first and foremost group. However, they are getting soft power kicks in the balls.